Dear Girls:

I just came back from a wonderful, relaxing, fun-filled weekend at Tio Casey and Tia Mariela's farm up in Virginia and I had some time to think about our situation on a more practical level. I put all feelings and emotions aside and analyzed our situation as best I could. I've realized that no matter how your father wants to spin the story, at the end of the day, he disposed of us. He told himself it wasn't "working out," whatever that means, and simply abandoned us. What makes it even worst is the fact that he moved on so fast. I can't help but feel like we were disposed like garbage. That he already is starting a new family with the whore who in one way or the other broke our home is beyond me. I don't think he's emotionally fit to provide a stable home for you guys. Time sharing? Say what? Allow you beautiful, innocent princesses to spend time with two fucked up individuals is unacceptable. The law is stupid. It says unless he physically hits you, I can't do anything about it. I have to disagree. I think emotional abuse is even worst and in my heart, I know time sharing you ladies and allowing you girls to live with a new whore and a bastard would be detrimental to your upbringing. I will do what I can to protect you both from them. They are evil and I don't want you girls surrounded by negative vibes. How can you help but feel replaced and abandoned? He still doesn't understand how terrible this whole situation is. And his entire family is just as messed up as he is. All they think about is individual happiness. What a bunch of selfish blip-blip-blip. It also kills me keeping secrets from you guys. One day you'll read this and understand me better. For now I must seem strong and invincible to you and I must say, I find my strength and my courage from you guys. I am and will try to be that superhero for you both. I will protect and do anything in my power to make you happy.

I love you both so much.

Mommy

It's ON

I met Haymitch today and hired him. Let the games begin and may the odds and God be ever in my favor. I'm ready and I'm strong. I know it.